Let the Chips Fall Where They May

I had a dream a few years ago where an angel drove me to a huge building. She walked me to the glass doors of the building and I looked inside. It was a large space and completely white. No pictures. No colors. No people. I tried to see down the hallways, but all was hidden from me. I only understood it to be the next adventure that God was ready to take me on, but it was still wrapped in mystery to me.

I looked over at the angel who was still with me. She was beautiful with short, blonde hair. She looked back at me as she reached for the door handle to open it and said, "If you're going to go in, you have to be all in." 

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I knew what she meant. This next adventure was going to require all of me. Not half of me. Not a quarter of me. All of me. All of my heart. All of my faith. All of my love. There would be no room for fence straddling, compromise or fear of man. I needed to decide before going in: 

Am I IN or am I OUT?

The dream got me doing some serious soul searching with the Holy Spirit as He began showing me areas of My heart that I hold back from Him. I guess for various reasons. Maybe unhealed trauma. Maybe fear of failure. Maybe plain old selfishness and wanting things my way instead of His way. These are all things that many believers work through. But now God was saying to me, 

"We have reached a juncture where you need to completely surrender to Me. What keeps you from doing this, darling? What keeps you from letting go? Have I not been good to you? Have I not shown Myself to you over and over again? Then, let Me take you the rest of the way. Let me lead you all the way to the end of your story. How does it profit you to stay stuck?"

Yes. How does it profit me?

So as one who throws herself from a plane to skydive into the atmosphere, I let go and say "I am all in!" And let the chips fall where they may.